Change.. not for a cup of Tea...

I have to change... that's all I'm ever told...

Change your hair...

Change the way you think...

Change and buy this toilet roll...

Why?

If I change every time it won't eventually be me, is me not liked?... but also change takes time... some things can be changed in an instant like a light bulb, or have the complication of a plug, which is a few minutes to solve... but other to me it seems can't be changed...

But what is change?.. 10p for a cup of tea has now increased to a £1 due to inflation...

No it nothing so simple.. change seems to be fundamental in this commercialised world, fashions come and go more regularly than before or get resurrected with increasing pace...

what we think on as bad before is now good... you're in or you're out...

But with all this change is it affecting emotions also for the worst?.. to the point that we no longer feel we just do?.. nothing preemptive... everything random, consequences video-ed and known to all, so that we think that is it?....

Some of this is already bleeding into society, gaining pace each year, in the 'if it's there, I'll just take it' attitude. Not thinking about your fellow man and his response... just he'll have to grin and bear it....

But me for example.. well I go on about a girl, one who is still in my heart.... Me I'm no longer in hers, so change has lead me to believe... and I have to accept this in the same "grin and bear it' fashion.. as well as people telling me to change and MOVE ON...

But what became of these loose feelings?what's cause the change? and all that emotion that was generated... the thoughts must have come from something changing....

Energy we are told never decrease only changes into a different type... so with change are we changing the energy of emotions? can they be classed as an energy generated thing?

I still can't get my head around why people can change this fast, to change this apparently important 'energy'... but that maybe down to situations as well..

I don't know why I cling to the past with such a devotion (previous blog on how I remember things clearly at times), only the little belief in me that we shouldn't change so quick...

Perhaps what change has changed us is the very tool I'm using... technology...

so should I change?

Oh Boris NOOOOOOO! the Humanity!

Cereal Fans, tragedy has struck my humble existent...

What a month it has been, me and my cereal gang have been living it large all this month!

Concert's, Opera, Eating out, Bungee Jumping... Rollercoasters, you name it we've done it, apart from anything involving water and milk, as we are all soluble....

But all is not well... maybe this was a pre-cursor that we had to enjoy life.

For what happened is shocking....

It all began with big hand having a few bad weeks and rushed off his rather large feet, but he doesn't know if he started the tragic events, as the wind has been picking up outside. and rushing around the building, it being old and falling apart. I mean would I have been given a chance at life in a well run building...I think not...

What tragic thing has happened to my beloved Bubbles (My nickname for my beloved Susie), in all her sugary puffy goodness (which may have lead to her downfall) has been kidnapped by our new resident Boris!

Big hand noticed the misfortune of my beloved on Tuesday, and was himself filled with grief at the very mishap unfolded before his eyes....

And he was just going to rescue her from the predicament, when Boris popped out, slow and sluggish, but keeping guard.... what to do OH what to do!

Big hand thinks that a gush of wind from the nearby kitchen door, or all the swish swash of people going by has lead to the 'light' Bubbles being blown onto Boris' web.

But for the moment he can't do anything.. Boris is very attentive, in fact he thinks that Bubbles maybe falling victim to Stockholm syndrome just like Patty Hearst, I've seen her stroking Boris's eight legs and going on about rights for spiders to live in any gap they find... and I think she is knitting a woolen spider-suit to 'Fit in'

OH what should a Cheerio Do?, I mean look at what I've had to lose..... she had a great bottom.

the solution was fast and quick from big hand, a lovely picture of Kelly Brook, who is single and top of the fit list at the moment and is appearing on everything at the minute, but can you blame her.. WOOF WOOF!.

So here I leave this cliff hanger... Does Bubbles return? Will Den raise from the grave and become a flesh eating Zombie.... along with Ethel... and Arthur..

Bring back rolly.. and wellhard.... and will Ian Beale ever leave the square?

DUM DUM DUMM DUMM DUM.....

Anyone can fall in love
That's the easy part you must keep it going
Anyone can fall in love
Over the years it has to keep growing
Sun and rain
Joy and pain
There's highs - there's lows
We've no way of knowing.

I'm rattling...

I feel broken and silly.. someone still has the biggest hold over me... yet me to this person, well I think I mean so little these days...

I still